Suicide Note

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An Experiment in Nihilism

What the hell happened to reason?

Nih, are you okay? I got worried when your name disappeared from your account for a bit.

ohhhh holy shit

what do

I'm fine. Bored and got a bunch of weeaboos copying my art. Don't know if I should be pissed because it is totally crap and they're wasting their time. My old crush from 8th grade who posts the same TF2 art is thinking nothing of bothering me by copying my art. She did this since the 8th grade. I'm more mad that she doesn't want to leave me alone nor talk to me to get to know my idea. She just aped it, using a different medium and changing one minor detail. Bitch is also misgendering me but that's to be expected for such an ignorant person mired in conservative Catholicism and trying to be edgy at the same time. Local Indie culture is also Catholic but more in an ironic sense as opposed to her method. She also talks funny and wanted to own me as a slave.

I borked my email and password so I can't get into the admin account anymore. That is all. I don't practice Santeria.

Ok, so not another knorg sockpuppet?

Sakurelf wrote:

Ok, so not another knorg sockpuppet?

Believe whatever you want

Nihilist wrote:

She also (...) wanted to own me as a slave.

She's catholic all right.

what the fuck is the matter with you, get help, man

but thanks for the fucking heart attack at 9:00 am today

yo why is miss prince the only one showing any concern here

Dude, if you need to vent or anything I'll be in the chatbox for a good long while.

Mafiosa wrote:

yo why is miss prince the only one showing any concern here

Because there's reason to believe it isn't Nihilist.

It's a brand new account. The join date is May 2, 2011 and the post count is 8. On top of that, it's a mediocre impersonation of Nihilist. It hit ALL of its usual topics (art angst, gender angst, whining about religious people, Indie bullshit, etc) like it was read off of a teleprompter (just like an Obama speech lol amirite?). The "Serial Troll" title is also odd. When Real Nihilist changed her account name (like I think she did), someone else could have registered as Nihilist, I believe. I don't really buy the explanation of "Borking" her email. She's a halfwitted stoner, not a retard.

Plus, this account name has the "Contributor" color, not the admin color. Knorg's account also has that color.

This is all besides the fact that this is the internet and no one gives a shit about such petty whinings ("OH NOEZ DEVIANTART").

You do have a point. It could be someone else fucking around, but I know he's been under a lot of stress lately, so I choose to believe it's really him and there's a problem, because the only bad consequence if I'm wrong is that I look stupid (and you can feel free to point that out, as I'm sure you will).

Way to address really upsetting people by making them think you were doing serious harm to yourself, Nil.

Way to fucking go.

P.S.: Assuming you're not trolling with the ghost bullshit, you are not haunted, you are having fucking hallucinations and you need fucking psychological help, or even more than you did the last time I saw you. I hate that I have to be the one to give enough of a tin shit to say that after the shit you pulled, but I apparently I am and do, so fucking do something about it. You're sick and these stupid antics are not helping you get better.

if nils trolling about this i guess i can chalk this up to another person i mistakenly gave a shit about and cared/worried about

Um, I wasn't linking to any suicide note. The site seriously is something I found on Tumblr. I know that a lot of you think I'm mentally unstable, a stoner, retarded, a sick fuck, etc, so to assume that I'm going to kill myself says more about you than I.

And naw, I'm not trolling. Just got sick of it and seriously just chill.

Mafiosa wrote:

if nils trolling about this i guess i can chalk this up to another person i mistakenly gave a shit about and cared/worried about

It doesn't really read like Nihilist's writing to me.

Sutremaine wrote:

Mafiosa wrote:

if nils trolling about this i guess i can chalk this up to another person i mistakenly gave a shit about and cared/worried about

It doesn't really read like Nihilist's writing to me.

no shit

but posting something about nihilism from suicidenotes.com doesn't sit well with me when there's literally no explanation

If Spotts has access to everything, can't he tell us if this is Nihilist or some ingenious troll?

Rabid Badger wrote:

Nice to see you come out of hiding to express your righteous indignation, Delly, given the way you just up and sort of evaporated there (thank Knorg for pointing out to those of us in the Penthouse that both you and Zeiss have been regularly lurking, despite having supposedly left the site because you didn't approve of how Nil was handling things). If you were no longer interested in being friends, a 'Hey man, it's time to move on' would've been nice, given how long we've known each other. Not that I'm bitter or anything.

1) As stated in the Penthouse, I haven't been lurking, someone mentioned on LJ that Nihilist mentioned seeing ghosts and I thought it was weird so I logged back on briefly to see what was up and hey, what the shit, Nihilist is seeing ghosts now. 2) I left because Nihilist was being manipulative, lying, and treating my friends like shit, true, but I also left because this place had turned into a boring, angry shithole. 3) As stated in the Penthouse, I blocked you on Facebook because you friended my mother without asking and kept commenting on my sister's wall, among other things, and I did not and do not have the strength to deal with boundary issues like that.

I initially just wanted to deal with misconceptions about how Zeiss and I were lost to the winds of the Intarwebs, but Mafi mentioned this and that she had seriously thought Nihilist had killed himself, and yeah, I am pretty righteously indignant. It's manipulative bullshit like this that disillusioned me to begin with and I'm not sorry for leaving, but I meant what I said: Nihilist, if you are telling the truth about seeing ghosts, then you are psychologically unwell and you need to see a doctor. And if he's not, then fuck him for making me care just because nobody else seems to.

It's Nih, and he's just fine. I talked to him on Facebook earlier. If you follow the link, it's a link to someone's tumblr (not his-I've got his tumblr address).

He stepped down for reasons that are purely personal, and that he can or can't tell you. That's his business. But I can assure you it isn't Knorg (though he's still around as well).

What the frack is going on

What the hell?
Okay so maybe I'm informationally ahead of some other people because I talk to him on Facebook near-daily, and he'd more or less announced quitting but seemed fine, just moved on, so I didn't take this as a... message, but he gave up the root admin account, made himself a new one as a reguar user, and posted in Websites about a website. Why did this warrant a blow-up in this thread?


That said, shame on you, Nil. No link dumping!